A locksmith came to my house on this icy Monday morning.
Diagnosed a small problem
Fixed it
anddddd, wait for it, absolutely refused to accept payment for the call out.
“Consider it your lucky day” he said.
And you know what? Instead of letting Lady Luck give me feels, I immediately went into a mild panic.
How can I accept that?
His time?
His fuel?
Poor guy!
Look at his broken car!
Whooooo does that?
Perhaps I can promote his business?
Maybe I’ll do a Facebook post?
I must pay it forward!
How much should I randomly donate?
Ah, maybe I’ll invent another few jobs for him? You know? Pay him double?
I know, right!? Gosh! Someone did something nice for me and I simply could not accept that RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS. I had to spoil the gesture with my own crap.
Yes, I am going THERE. Because it’s the truth.
Bottom line is that I give so freely and it gives me so much pleasure. The wavelength of GIVING, really is my best. But, it would seem that I have a real problem with ACCEPTING things. Gifts, compliments, random acts of other people’s kindness. This, despite my knowledge of the fact that the vibrations of GIVING and RECEIVING are each other’s oxygen. They need each other in order to exist.
I know the theory. But, my actions tell that I haven’t quite learnt to walk the talk, so to speak.
So, here I sit this Monday morning and,
It’s still icy
I’ve diagnosed the small problem
Now I need to do some more work in order to try and “fix” it
And I absolutely DO consider it my lucky day!
Because I’ve cracked yet another code about myself. Isn’t that’s really why we are even here? To try and understand why we do the things we do? This journey of Self-Mastery is hard work hey?
So, I guess all that’s left to say is Aluta Continua. That, and, how very grateful I am today and every day for the little gifts along the way.
In Gratitude,
Lee
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